Yes.... this is the extent of our New Years celebration this year. Mom, Dad, Heather and Jeff joined Mike and I for our traditional New Years Eve Chinese dinner. We usually go out to our favorite hibachi restaurant, but this year we opted to stay in and order delivery. It looked like a small buffet, we ordered way to much food but it made for great leftovers. We all read our fortunes for the upcoming year, except me... we were one cookie short and I chose to forgo my fortune.
It amazes me how different peoples reactions are when I tell them I lost my baby. All in all I've only had to answer this question about six times. I know that it doesn't sound like an awful lot but each one still manages to throw me into a funk. Yesterday, three people, today one. I play these conversations over and over in my head and wonder how the other person took the news. It all starts with a sweet, innocent gesture, a simple: "So, how's the baby?" I reply, "Unfortunately, we lost her". If you can imagine the look of someone seeing a ghost, that's about the look I receive. I've heard: "I'm so sorry", "God Bless You", "that's not the answer that I was expecting" "Oh, I totally forgot!" (guessing this person knew and asked without thinking?!?) Some people blush and look like they want to run away, some gave me a hug, some say they will keep me in their prayers. And before you know ...
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