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Welcome to 2013.....2013, the year we were so excited to become parents, have a family and welcome our daughter Madison into the world.
When you first find out your "due date" the day is forever engraved in your mind, your body, and your soul. You tell everyone the date and circle every calendar that you own. You count down the weeks until your due date and say it countless times as it's usually the first thing someone asks you when they find out that you're pregnant.
 For us January 10, 2013 is that date.
There is no guarantee that she would have actually been born on this exact date, but as this date gets closer I can't stop wondering when her actual date of arrival would have been. 
January 10th, it seemed like a lifetime away when I saw my first positive pregnancy test on May 4th 2012. I have to say that the 32 and 1/2 weeks that I was pregnant flew by very quickly.... and here we are now into January and I feel this empty feeling inside as I know we should be anxiously awaiting Madison's arrival.
Madison, I see your face every morning when I wake up, I see your name everywhere I go.
I'll love you forever.

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  1. Sara, I know i say this a lot and its probably getting on your nerves at this point, but you are such a STRONG women !!!

    I cannot begin to imagine all the emotions you are experiencing, but i do want to let you know that im here for you, day or night !! Whatever you need I am here :)

    We love you so much !!

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  2. (((((((BIG HUG))))))) With much love, respect, and admiration.... Uncle Tommy

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