We're Expecting!!! Our 1st doctors appointment was May 23, 2012. Our Dr.'s name is Dr. Moore and he is a part of the Peachtree Women's Clinic at Northside Forsyth. I have to admit that my fear of needles had me terrified and made my blood pressure go through the roof. I was such a mess!! Luckly no needles for me at this appointment, so I could relax. As soon as I saw the image on the screen I knew all of the stress and fear was worth it. Dr. Moore said I am 7 weeks pregnant with a due date of January 10-12. He said it looks like a very healthy sac and The embryo is the size of a blueberry. Words cannot describe the emotion of seeing a tiny heart beat and that little nugget that was created by Mike and I. I am so glad that we got to share this moment together and it was something that we will never forget. We cannot wait to watch this little miracle grow before our very eyes.
Grieving... it is sometimes described as a "roller coaster" but there are no words to describe the roller coaster that I am on. Some days go by and I am completely fine, I don't know how but we still laugh, I act goofy with Mike and we are "normal"... our kind of normal. Then, out of no where it's like someone drops a bomb on you and you spin out of control and a wave of emotions take over and you loose complete control. One minute I'm angry that our daughter is gone and I cannot see her or hold her, the next minute I an anxious about how our life will never be the same and how do I go on with day to day activities. It is the strangest feeling to be so out of control of your feelings and emotions. I want to say that we are "OK" and that 90% of the time we are strong and staying positive, I know that is what Madison would want and that she is looking down on us giving us the strenght we need. We have a wonderful support group that
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