We are Young

Today marks 6 months from the day we lost our baby girl.  November 18th.  November 18, 2012 was a day that changed our lives forever. At 32 and 1/2 weeks pregnant, who knew that something like this could have happened to us? Defiantly not me. At the time we were far to consumed with making sure her nursery was complete, marveling over all of the fantastic gifts that I had received at my baby shower, planning for the Holidays and anxiously awaiting her arrival to worry or even think that something could go wrong.  To this day I still have flashbacks and relive the moments of that day and the days to follow.  At the time, in the hospital I know I was in a state of shock and denial, I was also sedated.  It is somewhat blurry to me but I still relive certain moments like it all happened yesterday.  At times, it still feels like it did happen yesterday.  Unfortunately, I do have a few regrets which will haunt me my whole life... I blame it on the shock, the fear and the sedation.  I re

Mothers' Day, The day was one that I was at first dreading but was insistent on making it a positive day.  We spent the day with family, doing what we do best... eating! Sister cooked a wonderful brunch in her new home.  It was nice to have her do the entertaining!  I received a beautiful Open heart necklace from Mike, it is an angel in rose gold with diamond wings.  I could not have asked for anything more beautiful.  Mom and Dad gave us a touching gift as well, they had a photo of Madison's feet etched in a glass block, I have to say her feet in the glass, they look so real to me, it is 3d like and when the light hits it just right it is amazing.  Mom In Law gave us a beautiful solar powered outdoor chandelier with a beautiful meaning behind it, that when the lights come on it is to remind us of Madison and her light.  All of these gifts are so meaningful and touched my heart beyond words. I thought of you and closed my eyes And prayed to God today I asked, "