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Mother's Day



Mothers' Day, The day was one that I was at first dreading but was insistent on making it a positive day.  We spent the day with family, doing what we do best... eating! Sister cooked a wonderful brunch in her new home.  It was nice to have her do the entertaining!  I received a beautiful Open heart necklace from Mike, it is an angel in rose gold with diamond wings.  I could not have asked for anything more beautiful.  Mom and Dad gave us a touching gift as well, they had a photo of Madison's feet etched in a glass block, I have to say her feet in the glass, they look so real to me, it is 3d like and when the light hits it just right it is amazing.  Mom In Law gave us a beautiful solar powered outdoor chandelier with a beautiful meaning behind it, that when the lights come on it is to remind us of Madison and her light.  All of these gifts are so meaningful and touched my heart beyond words.

























I thought of you and closed my eyes
And prayed to God today I asked, "What makes a Mother?" and I know I heard him say A Mother has a baby, This we know is true But, God, can you be a mother when your baby's not with you?

Yes, you can he replied with confidence in his voice
I give many women babies when they leave it is not their choice some I send for a lifetime and others for the day and some I send to feel your womb but there's no need to stay. 

I just don't understand this God
I want my baby here, h
e took a breath and cleared his throat and then I saw a tear
I wish I could show you
What your child is doing Here i
f you could see your child smile with other children and say 
"We go to earth to learn our lessons
of love and life and fear, but My mommy loved me so much I got to come straight here!" I feel so lucky to have a Mom who had so much love for me I learned my lessons very quickly
My Mommy set me free.
I miss my Mommy oh so much but I visit her each day
When she goes to sleep on her pillow is where I lay I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear
"Mommy, Please don't be sad today
I'm your baby and I am here"
So you see my dear sweet one your children are okay your babies are here in My home and this is where they'll stay they'll wait for you with Me until your lessons there are through and on the day that you come home they'll be at the gates waiting for you, so now you see what makes a Mother, it's the feeling in your heart 
It's the love you had so much of
Right from the very start
~Author Unknown

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