I cannot begin to explain how fast the time has FLOWN during my second pregnancy. Between working, cooking, cleaning, laundry, caring for the hubby and a puppy and daily shots there is little time for fun.... Even tough it's hard not to have a good time in the Young house! I am swooning over the tiny kicks that I am starting to feel on a daily basis. I've been anxious to feel them and now that they are starting it brings a whole new aspect to things.
Grieving... it is sometimes described as a "roller coaster" but there are no words to describe the roller coaster that I am on. Some days go by and I am completely fine, I don't know how but we still laugh, I act goofy with Mike and we are "normal"... our kind of normal. Then, out of no where it's like someone drops a bomb on you and you spin out of control and a wave of emotions take over and you loose complete control. One minute I'm angry that our daughter is gone and I cannot see her or hold her, the next minute I an anxious about how our life will never be the same and how do I go on with day to day activities. It is the strangest feeling to be so out of control of your feelings and emotions. I want to say that we are "OK" and that 90% of the time we are strong and staying positive, I know that is what Madison would want and that she is looking down on us giving us the strenght we need. We have a wonderful support group that
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