So much is changing about our sweet boy, he's no longer considered a newborn since he's hit the three month mark. Not sure where the time has gone.... Each morning I look forward to waking up to his smile and coos. He's a morning person to say the least! He always greets you with a smile and he has started to smile at strangers too. He loves to be talked to and coos away! He also is becoming very alert and curious of his surroundings. He will focus in on an object and really study it. Mason has also discovered his hands and will grab his toys, my hair, his passy and his baba (bottle). Mason is wearing 3-6 month clothes and is outgrowing 1 diapers. He's eating 6 oz bottles every 4-5 hours and has slept through the night a few times for eight hours!
Grieving... it is sometimes described as a "roller coaster" but there are no words to describe the roller coaster that I am on. Some days go by and I am completely fine, I don't know how but we still laugh, I act goofy with Mike and we are "normal"... our kind of normal. Then, out of no where it's like someone drops a bomb on you and you spin out of control and a wave of emotions take over and you loose complete control. One minute I'm angry that our daughter is gone and I cannot see her or hold her, the next minute I an anxious about how our life will never be the same and how do I go on with day to day activities. It is the strangest feeling to be so out of control of your feelings and emotions. I want to say that we are "OK" and that 90% of the time we are strong and staying positive, I know that is what Madison would want and that she is looking down on us giving us the strenght we need. We have a wonderful support group that
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