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A Pair of Angel Wings

I went for my much needed walk yesterday.
I somehow managed to walk much further than I had initially anticipated, but it helped to clear my mind and it made me feel good about myself. Even though it started to rain on me I just kept going.
On our driveway we have these strange "dry spots" where when it rains they still look dry and light in color. I don't know if something spilt there, maybe oil? On my walk I stumbled across this little dry spot on the sidewalk in our neighborhood that caught my eye. I looked at it and just kept walking.... took a few steps but then turned around for another look. To me, I could not help to think that this little dry spot looks an awful lot like a pair of angel wings. Maybe I'm crazy, I don't know? I never though that i'd be one of those people that saw signs from above on a piece of toast or in a cloud but I also was never one to look for those things. I am beginning to see that there might be some reason that I keep seeing these signs, there is definitely a pattern going on. 
My eyes have been opened and I believe that if you slow down and "stop and smell the roses" that there are things that you will see, that might have been there the whole time but were just overlooked.

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