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Where's my head?

Just a sample of where my head is at these days... I'm standing in line to return a movie at the Redbox kiosk. I get to the machine to insert my rental only to find out that I am putting an empty case into the box. 
Yes, I left home to return a movie and left the movie in the DVD machine.... really! To make things worse I turn around and storm off with the empty case in my hand and everyone is looking at me like I am crazy... including the pregnant woman behind me. I am so frustrated with myself. 

On a lighter note, I spend the day with my mom having lunch at Marlow's Tavern, walking around the Avenue and seeing the movie, Silver Linings Playbook. I didn't know much about the movie but saw that it had received eight Oscar nom's so I figured it was worth a watch. 
This movie really resonated with me as both of the main characters are going through their own life complications, which are no way related to mine but I could feel for them. Pat, played by Bradley Cooper is a believer in silver linings; his mantra is "excelsior," the Latin word for "ever upward." As he struggles to stay balanced, we cheer him on with a firm belief that he can step off the emotional rollercoaster he is on and put things right. This is a great "feel good" movie with a great ending. I know that i'll be cheering for it on Oscar night. 


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  1. HeatherJanuary 24, 2013 at 8:37 AM

    That is your nature. You would have done that anyways. But that is why I love you. For all your querks and weirdness!!! ~Heather

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